"Washed"

⁸ “No,” said Peter, “you shall never wash my feet.”    Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”
 ⁹ “Then, Lord,” Simon Peter replied, “not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!”
      -John 13:8-9

Oh God Please wash my feet!
And wash my hands too!
In fact wash my head!
And when your through!
Do it again!
Because I cant stand the thought of living without you!
We've walked with you!
And seen miracles and signs.
But please right now God get up in my mind!
 Because these thoughts that iv been thinking!
There tearing me apart.
And listen closely this pain is going so deep inside my heart.
So when your done washing my body, please wash my mind and soul.
Because I have this heavy feeling like im trapped in this deep hole.
So hear my cry God!
And i know you will.
But sometimes i just don't feel like being still.
I wanna move and walk and talk and fight my own battles.
But i know that im not strong enough.
And i know your more than enough.
To get me through my selfish and unexplainable rattles.
And these battles that im trying to fight. 
I put on the armor but i still feel naked and bare.
And God please excuse me if i get a little bit scared.
Even though i know your there.
I still feel naked and bare.
so wash me and cloth me.
Give me courage to fight the pain.
Im done with this shame!
And I know your here.